I Left It

My best friend posted this idea for a poem on her blog, and it gave me an idea for mine. If you’re interested in reading her rendition or any of her other heartfelt posts, here she is.

Without further ado, here is mine.

I Left It

I left it,
Wet with unshed tears and
Aching with neglect,
Deep inside my soul
Where my other failures lie.
A lost love,
A bad grade,
A forgotten friend,
All shoved into a trunk
In the darkest corner
Of my subconscious.
I left it
In a futile attempt
To pretend it never happened.
I left it
In a futile attempt
To pretend I was better.
But I wasn’t.
I am now, though.
I’m stronger,
Braver,
More confident
Than I was then.
I am a better person now.
So every so often,
I open my trunk
Just to make sure
That it’s still there,
Right where I left it.

My Motive

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All great things,
I suppose,
Should start with a motive.
An intention,
Whether it be to give your best
Or your worst,
To accomplish a goal,
Or to make your mark,
To change things,
To invent things,
Should be a catalyst.
Why should anything
In a life so short
Be meaningless?
My words
Are carefully chosen.
Hand picked,
Hand crafted,
To fill a slot in my writing
That can be filled by no other.
My motive
Is to change the world
One carefully formed word at a time,
Strung together by emotion and
Sealed with a kiss,
My motive
Is to present you
With everything I am.

The Other Loves

We are taught to believe
True love is inevitable
If you search hard enough.
If you kiss enough frogs and
Climb enough mountains
You’ll find it.
But what of other loves?
Your love for the written word,
For your family,
For what you believe in,
Where does that come in?
It becomes your drive.
It becomes your art.
It becomes what you need
To make the stress of life
Manageable again.
It’s what makes you
You.
The individual,
The one and only.
Screw standards,
Stereotypes, and
All else.
Don’t count out your other loves.
Let them love you back.

The Crazy Ones

Make your mark,
Scream your name.
Move a mountain,
Stake your claim.
Gain respect,
Do things right.
Stand by your ideas,
Put up a fight.
Pave your path,
The one you lead.
Be a hero,
The one you need.
Go ahead, be crazy,
They’re far and few.
They’re crazy to change things,
But they’re the ones that do.

A Letter to Myself a Year in the Past

Hey dearest,
It’s me,
The future you.
There’s a lot of things
You hoped to do.
You accomplish a lot,
You build and destroy.
You get straight As.
You shatter a boy.
You create a relationship,
Make many new friends,
You are stressed to the max
When your sophomore year ends.
Yet through ugly and beautiful,
Through darkness and light,
You had a great year.
You make it out all right.
Though some things end in disaster,
And some in success,
You wouldn’t trade this year
For anything less.
You’re onto great things,
And I hope that you see
You’re capable of greatness,
An example through me.
You grow as a person,
And I hope that one day
When you write this letter,
You’ll be likely to say,
“I’m wonderful, I’m beautiful,
Though I’m not a star,
I’m perfectly flawed.”
Because darling, you are.
Capable of further than you bargained for,
You’re a hero
You’re a human
You are so much more.
So I sign off here,
With a smile and a sigh.
I have a future to get to.
I love you.
Goodbye.

Broken Sunshine

I walk outside into a world
Filled with broken rays of sunshine.
They dance across my skin
With warm, uneven steps that
Make me wonder
Why I haven’t noticed them before.
So concentrated was I
On the shimmering serenity
Of pure black punctured by stars
That I believed myself so a part of.
I never stepped back to wonder,
To notice or question,
If I too
Was a broken ray of sunshine.

 

I’ve decided to start over. Anew, really. I’ve decided that if I’m not happy with my life the only thing I can do is change it. Wish me luck.

But things can only get better from here.